A letter to myself

Dear Self,

Seven years ago my life was changed forever. One in the year 2005 I had what I thought was an awesome job and goal to finish school, get my own apartment, earn some credit. All of these things happened except for finishing school in MS. On August 1, 2005 I moved into my own apartment. My credit is still down the drain but it will be fixed one day. Anyway a little less than a month later a huge storm that I refer to as Camille's daughter Katrina came ashore on the Mississippi Gulf Coast and surrounding areas. You do not know this now but in a week you will get a job as a debri monitor and meet a really awesome guy. However, the connection will get lost along the way and then reconnect again. In November that awesome guy will call you and ask if you want to still hang out? Of course, you reply not fully knowing how this guy will impact you or your future life. Fast forward to April 17, 2006 around 8:00 P.M. MS time and you will be on your way moving to GA. What?, you think and you will begin an exciting new life in a whole different time zone. Around six months from there you will get a job and shortly there after you will find out that a baby will be born. Then the first ultrasound of what you believe is one baby will turn out to be two babies. You then fall off the table, not really but you want too. Anyway, you have been a lucky mom that was able to stay home with them for what is now six years.

Recently, you have tried to find a job but for whatever the reason you are having some bad luck. Oh yeah I forget to mention that along the way you get married and are enjoying life as much as possible. However, again some medical issues have come along the way with your life. Be strong and brave even on the toughest days when your back feels like it is going to pound open and your having some rough nausea. Remember what does not kill you makes you stronger. You will get through this and make it. As I sit here writing this letter to my self and think I must be strong and get through it I just wonder..... Are there any doctors that truly care about their Patients or is it just a preside that they feel they must maintain to keep them as patients? I felt that I found a doctor that cared and I think he truly does but the one I was referred to see to have a procedure done just makes me think she really only cares about who is paying and who is not. And so as an end result I am stuck in misery at the moment. As a poor 47% that has six people in the household we somehow make too much money on the scale for family medicaid. Another thing is that our lovely state of GA does not want to implement the health care bill until after the November elections in hopes that the bill will be repealed. Our governor does not want to pay a crap load of money for families and people in general who cannot afford health insurance. So back on track to self again. Keep doing the things you do and know that good things really do come to those who wait. While you are waiting make sure to apologize even when you are right or wrong, Love unconditionally even when it seems impossible and to the fullest. Laugh often and stay positive because it will come in handy when you are feeling at your worse. Just remember to always be you no matter what others want or feel you should be because when you are you it is real and not fake. Love, Self